You Silly Fuck

imeanttodothat:

Okay, so who’s ever driven late at night? When you’re so tired you swear you see shit in the road that’s not there?

That’s every night in my world. Too much time to think… all alone driving around in circles. Happy thoughts, sad thoughts, scary thoughts, and ones I definitely should never ever share. Eights hours alone with your own head every night is way too much time spent with ones self.

I’ve learned the hard way that I should not call or text or email anyone that has popped into my head on the midnight shift until I have had a proper 3 hours sleep.

My twisted, tired mind makes someone, that in the light of day, I ran from like poison, seem like a good idea.

“Sleep deprivation” bottle that shit and sell it.

At least when I got high, I’d come down sooner or later. I am a zombie walking through life. Nobody knows, I look like everyone else but my brain is tilted. All I see and process is just a little bit skewed. I don’t dare trust anything I feel.